I was interviewed the morning after "Hit the Production" demonstration in Copenhagen - 13th of December 2009. These are my reflections... And me caught on camera! Gosh, I don't know whether to run and hide or smile. Gosh, I just look so exhausted and I'm not used to speaking in front of a camera at all. Talking way to fast, acting all nervous + of course, Mr. n' Mrs. pronunciation and vocabulary kindly waited outside my head to let me make a public fool out of myself. Even better, now I'm posting it on my blog?! Gee, another brilliant idea? One never knows. Well, my own private hall of shame/fame - Here I come.
THIS IS NOT WHAT DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE
| COPENHAGEN TURNS INTO A POLICE STATE | Part 1
THIS IS NOT WHAT DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE
| COPENHAGEN TURNS INTO A POLICE STATE | Part 2
THIS IS NOT WHAT DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE
| COPENHAGEN TURNS INTO A POLICE STATE | Part 3
Picture: Me having a Dread Head moment. And if you look carefully you can spot the huge as tree tattooed on my back.
Soundtrack: Perfect Circle - Sleeping beauty (Lyrics)
I know I've used it as my soundtrack before but its an classic and the video, fan made btw, is just brilliant. Besides, it sorta fits in perfectly with... oh gosh, here comes the melodramatic drama queen, my situation with Zhe. I. I. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Heart: Confused. Really confused. I replied Zhe's mail (just as I mentioned in my a previous post) Haven't gotten an answer to that one yet but, yes... we ended up chatting for a bit a couple of days ago. You know the drill, "I miss you, I'm still in love with you, this hurts like fuck". Gee. Thanks. Never could have guessed that one. Gosh, what ever am I going to do with you? (or with me for that matter?)
A good friend of mine said;
- "All the bad stuff and none of the good stuff. Genious."
- "Huh? none of the good?" I replied.
- "Yes, ponder this: if you've got a messed up relationship with Zhe then you'll at least get to be around hir. At the moment though, you're sitting all alone in your room, missing Zhe AND hurting. So none of the good stuff but all of the bad."
- "haha... yeah, you're right. I guess."
Thinking of moving to Göteborg, want to real bad. Although its sorta giving up on Stockholm, isn't it? Or is it just me wanting to hit the road again? In need of a new place? Something to get my mind of things? As far away from Zhe as I can get but hir knows all of the people in Göteborg too so... Been hiding from the world for the last week or so, not knowing what to do or where to go. Got another job interview here in town and I don't know what I want anymore. Torn between realities.
What happened next has been described as torture by the legal council I visited directly after I got out. I didn't understand what was happening in the begining. All the sudden I had a hard time breathing, it hurt. And as I looked around my cellmates (cagemates) held pieces of cloth over their mouths and noses. Trapped and with no were to go the cops (after firmly holding our door in place again) used pepper spray to calm us down. Everyone took the blankets and put them up against the bars, tor the benches from the walls and made even more noise. But just as in a previous quote, "To calm people with pepper spray is just as effective as trying to calm a cat by shoving custard down its anus". It didn't exactly help. Pepper Spray? The cops are actually using peppers spray on us? I couldn't believe it. This was just not happening. And for those of you who don't know, just like I didn't, pepper spray spreads throughout the room and will stay there for quite some time not just affecting one person but the whole lot of you. Which meant that we were all breathing in pepper spray for the next couple of hours. Needless to say, I got a bad rash covering my body afterwards which took about 3 or 4 days until it went away.
But the best part was when everyone started chanting at the top of their lungs "This is what Democracy looks like!!!" which resulted in even more pepper spray... And hey, I'm all for democracy. Its just that this, that we're calling Democracy and keep on forcing everyone in the world to convert to - well, come on you guys! Its just not it. This is what "your" democracy looks like, wanna come and check out the real thing? Or try some Anarchism on for a change? Some real, sweet beautiful Anarchism. There is a whole lot more to it then media wants us to believe. Remember "Freedom of Speech"? "They" obviously don't.
Eventually the riot police stormed us, stormed all the cages (at least on the woman side) and took away everything. Pressing us up against the wall and threatinging us with their weapons. They even took away our water. Shortly afterwards all the woman were transfered to the other side of the hall were the men were keeped. Of course still seperate but these cages had thicker bars - haha! They didn't count on us actually being able to break out. HAHAHAHA! you know what, we're just as pissed off as these guys are!
No water, no warmth, no food and the general freeling of hoplessness spread through out the room. After about six hours we were set free, fresh air had never smelled so good to me! There's a new law in place that got passed just before the COP15 in Denmark. It means that the Police has the right to a so called "preventive arrest". (1,2, wiki) Which basically means that they can arrest anyone for anything and say that the persons were planning on making trouble later on. You don't even have to have anything ileagl on you!! And yes, the Police actually stop people on the streets to check them. Randomly.
The new Law says that people from Denmark can be held in custady for up to six hours without any real reason and of course longer if they want to. Foriners can be there for twelve hours. but we we're lucky, the gang on the night before had been there for twelve hours and got fed meat. (Arrested at the big demonstration 12 Dec 2009). Hey, we're environmentalists! A lot of vegans if you hadn't noticed?? They also had to sit on the grownd for several fuckin' freezing hours before getting on the busses that transported them to the prision. And a lot of them were set free after an hour on the bus too, not enough space to hold them all. Gosh. And this was a planed arrest too!!
Heaps of info out there about that one, here's a quick youtube:
Heart Status: I finally got up the nerve and replied that email I got from Zhe about a week ago. (I'd sent a short reply saying I'd get back when I knew what to write as soon as I read it and now I sorta worked out what to say, more or less.) I guess now its my turn to wait again. But I don't even know if there is gonna be an answer to this one. Or what type of answer I want. Still all confused inside and... in love.
Nightmare's: Heaps. I stayed at Electroboy's house before hitching back to Stockholm and I hadn't been asleep for more then a minute or two when the first one hit me. And then they kept on coming all night. Every night. I don't know what I'm afraid of but it sure as hell isn't funny anymore.
Person of the Day: A random anonymous comment I got about my blog, thanks. Your thoughts and words mean a lot to me.
Soundtrack: The Streets and anything else British Bitter Trip-Hop sounding. Make's me frown, smile and pout while trying to sing along. It also seems to numen the heartache, only one draw back though, numens everything else too - with extensive listening.
So as I got searched and went finally let out of my hand cuffs (which are made out of plastic strapps), I was led into a huge industry hall. And there they were. I couldn't believe it. I've heard about them but didn't think the roumers were true - but they were. 2.4 x 2.4 x 5 m. Cage. Caged. Prision in its original meaning. I felt like a ferret, trapped. Never really thought about how much freedom meant ot me but all the sudden it was the only thing anyone of us could think about.
Woman and men were keeped seperat, about 10 in each cage (we were eleven). The interier consisted of two benches strapped to the "walls", three isolating matts (very much needed cause of the freezing concrete floor) and after a while we even got thin blankets. Oh, the joy in little favors! And the all important water bottles. At first we screamed, "let us out!" and all sorts of chants from the demonstration ("Hit the Production - demo") The silence came. Or well, it was never silent but I was exhasted and fell asleep. Waking up to realise that the nightmare was infact true. Feeling the bars undernieth with my fingers.
Then rage hit the room. We went mad. Crying out "No Juctic, No peace - Fuck the Police", "ACAB - All Cops Are Bastards", "Climate Justice Now!". Baning the walls with out water bottles, screaming madly. I guess we were about 270 people in that hall so the noise was deafening. Some of the cops wore ear protection grear along with their batons. Across from us was one of the few cages on our side of the hall with men in it. They started jumping around, dancing, not hitting the walls but singing but soon got stopped by the Riot Police who stormed the cage and made them stand up against the walls, legs apart for another search.
The cages had during the previous night gotten quite a rough treatment from the inmates and the doors were now reinforced with wood. Which was great for us, cause they made heaps more noise if one hit them. At first I was kinda scared, tried to "just" scream and hit my bottle against the bars. But I got, just as everyone else, caught up in the rage and soon pushed agains the door. The police couldn't keep track on us all. We had passed the point of rage and were now on the level of pure instinct, "let us out!" and of course the question on all of our mindes - "what have we done!?"
All the sudden I was laying flat on my back, in the middle of the corridor and stunned policemen all around me. Ha! I'd, "accidently", busted the door which was now - with a massive bang - on the floor benieth me. I paniced. Didn't know what to do, shit!! So I chickened out, knew I'd never make it passed the guards and ran into my cage to hid beind the other woman who were all laughing their asses of at the Police.
Hitching: From mum in Småland to a skipper in Hamlstad for a sweet night of chatting and today --> hitting Göteborg and (almost) all of my favorite people down here. And some much needed love and hugs.
Person of the day: No not one, all the beautiful people I've meet during my travels.
Heart: broken, cardefully huged by lovely friends. broken again and missing you Zhe. Way to much!
Nightmare: I got back together again with Zhe and once again - woke up to reality.
There has to be a first time for everything, right? Its just that I didn't think it was gonna be quite this "real" but I guess one never does.
Peacefully walking along at the "Hit the Production" demonstration in Copenhagen on the 13 December 2009, (against capitalism and for the environment - Climate Justice Now!) the Police sorrounded us after about half an hour. It was as if they were already in place, ready to take us in. We'd done nothing. We weren't gonna do anything!
"A - Anti - Anti-Capitalista"
Scared, we found ourselves trapped. With no where to go. A countdown started on "our side" and all the sudden everyone ran towards the cops to push up against them. Which - needless to say - to pissed off royaly and they, in return, forced us back together. They wanted us to sit down, but there was no physical roomfor us to obey. No space. It didn't matter to them though. They hit a girl next to me in the head with a baton even though her arms were in the air, just like mine.
Actually, the videos will tell you a lot more then my writings. Just check them out if you wanna know what happened.
Hitching: Surprised mum by hitching to her place the day before yesterday and am gonna move on tomorrow probably. Loving to road, again. Ha, my true home? Yeah. Even though its below zero at the moment.
Heart: Tying to pick up the pieces, seems like some of them are missing though. Watch out where you put your feet, you might walk all over me again.
Nightmare: Define Nightmare? I had an absolute wonderful dream and woke up with a smile thinking I was on the ferry to go see Zhe, that hen had said "sorry, for everything. I want you back, wont you come and spend new years eve with me?". Wasn't all great when I realised that it had all been just in my little head. Humpf.
They thought we were gonna be about 30.000, maybe even 50.000 people at the big demonstration on the 12/12-09 crying out for Climate Justice. But we blow them away, we were a merry bunch of a fuckin' 100.000 people marching towards Bella Center were the COp15 meeting was held.
Nightmares: Hmm, no but uneasy sleeping and lots of dreams. Talked in my sleep too and woke up the person next to me. Ooops.
Heart: Trying to hard to make it numb, be a busy bee but the it all the sudden hits me again. The next anoying love song is in my head at the moment, "Unbreak my heart". Humpf... So I guess, unbreak my heart Zhe. Will you? Gosh, hen doesn't even read my blog anyways. Maybe that's a good thing. Right about now.
Non-Christmas: So sweet. Someone came up with the cute name "FUAC" Friends United Against Christmas. Yay! Queer vegan bubble of love down here. Sadly the snow has melted again. So no snowball fight this time. Or at least today.
Green: Discussing a lot of green issues down here and trying to get over my "Fuck the idiot bloody world - we're all gonna die"-"depression". We'll make it there. Or at least I hope to learn how to be more patience.
Pictures: I took them and heaps more at the demonstration.
Last update I heard was that Obama and Hillary Clinton were finally in place but The States said (in an ever so childish way) that they're only gonna sign a deal if China is. And they of course very well know that China never will. But really, there isn't even a deal! None to talk about anyways!
Just read another mail from Climate Justice Action (one of the organisations in Copenhagen during COP15) and I just couldn't have said it better. So I'm gonna be all (non)sneaky and a thieve for that matter. Posting it right here. And if you're in Copenhagen, do join in on the Demo!! Everyone is needed.
"The cop 15 comes to an end - and it has not coped with what politicians promised. There is no treaty that might preserve us from the catastrophic consequences of runaway climate change. The summit's agenda didn't even include real solutions to the climate crisis - such as tackling economic growth, leaving fossile fuels in the ground and implementing food souverainity. Neither has it adressed the ecological debt the global north has with the south or measures for a just transition towards a low carbon economy and society.
Delegates from the civil society have been excluded from the process, some of them beaten up by the police when trying to join the peoples assembly for climate justice outside the Bella Center.
Demonstrations have been cattled, attacked with tear-gas, pepper-spray and batons, more than 1.500 climate activists have been arrested over the past two weeks. Some of them are still in jail - those and others, including spokespeople for climate justice action are now facing trials for taking a role in our common struggle for climate justice.
We neither accept the results of this summit nor the repression our friends and comrades are facing - and that is why we will be on the streets again on friday (18th dec):
peaceful solidarity march from Israels Place near Norreport station (15:00) to Slodsplads (Christiansborg)
Mr. Harrison
"To calm people with pepper spray is just as effective as trying to calm a cat by shoving custard down its anus"
Me
"Before this, (COP15 - Climate Change Meeting in Copenhagen) I had respect for the police. Or rather, I was naive and afraid of them. And of course they still scare me - probably more now then ever - but now I wont think fuckin' twice about going up against them again. Those bastards diverse everything they can bloody handle AND get custard shoved down their anus on top of that."
Mr. Harrison
"I don't care about climate justice anymore, please just give us normal justice!"
Person of the Day: Mr. Harrison
Nightmare status: Richter scale: 7. One that I clearly remember where I got arrested again, brutally. Managed to send a txt to Zhe before though and said that I'm not gonna make my train back home. When I woke up next morning I noticed that I really did send him that txt in the middle of the night.
Todays Homepage is for those who still don't know what COP15 is all about and don't have the guts to ask someone about it.
Climate Video of the Day:
From "Hit the Production" Demonstration I attended at Sunday and got to spend time in the so called Climate Cages in custody. You can even see me, I've got a red backpack on my tummy walking towards the bus escorted by the Police.
Soundtrack: Rage Against the Machine - Killing in the name of
Hey, so here's a really cool new idea! Ha, its new for me at least. Of course I knew that google made heaps of money by me clicking on their links but I didn't really think about what actually happens when I hit the button. Of all the power (non-green) that feed the servers all over the world to give me, little me, an answer. My mum posted this on her Facebook and I checked it out. Cool! So I reposted it on my page and got a totally different response.
A: "The basic idea of generating revenue to buy rainforest is good but there is some manipulation (read: extravagant lies) in the video hidden under a comfortable blanket of "some say that...""
B: "It actually makes me think, what is WWF doing with the money? How more money can save more rainforests? They pay people not to cut them down or what?"
Me: "probably something like that, frankly I don't really care. The fact That the money goes to something/someone else then the big guys in suits is more then enough for me. The fact that it is used to "save the forest" is more then enough for me. I'm kinda tired of the whole "but don't you know that they are frauds too?" argument. Cause even if they are, they at least made us all think and made us spread out our money somewhat. Good enough for me."
B: "That might be creating a bigger problem for the future."
Me: "your point being? it might be a bigger problem that the forest is still standing no matter how or what made it happen or that its a good enough reason for me to use that search engine even though I actually can't check out the big bad facts behind ecosia's nice front page?"
B: "That's what I wanted to hear - what are they actually doing with the money - creating a network of protected areas makes sense. Otherwise it goes as "Ok, give us money. More money. I said, MORE MONEY!", which does not bring saving wildlife anywhere."
Me: "well, actually. I reccon its a lot better giving organisations like WWF money then google any day, even though I might not actually know what its used for. Cause I know what the money the big guys (oh, I'm not only talking about google here) goes to - bigger cars, more meat in their food and better silicon implants. You know what? No thanks. Its even good enough for me if WWF wants to buy their 10AM eco coffee fo each time I use ecosia. Ha. Its good enough for me."
Ok, so I might have been a bit harsh there at the end but seriously. I'd rather WWF or some other green organisation owning huge amounts of rainforest then it simply being cut down. And gosh, yes! I'll still be using google on occasion. Besides I'm a huge gmail fan, I'm obviously using blogger, youtube and have recently discovered google chrome + google wave. But if using the ecosia link will get someone else some money and it is hopefully used in a green manner then, heck. I don't see the problem. What do you think?
"This is a meat free Kitchen" I heard myself proudly announce one late evening in front of my flatmates who weren't to impressed (or actually it was one of the boy friends of my flatmates who made the biggest face). Fuck, I could almost look at the tension in the room so I snook out. But crawled back the next day to apologise and explain.
You see, imagine yourself looking upon a corpse. A Human Corpse. Tell me how you feel. Focus. Look at it while I chop it up into small pieces, blood "accidentally" getting on your shirt and a not to pleasant smell starts to spread through out the room. While we walk over to the kitchen sink, hey you sill with me?, I grab the frying pan and grease it up real good. Now, Imagine the faint, at first, scent of human flesh fill the air. And you probably already know, I'm not the best chef, so sadly the freshly cut piece of meat gets rather burned on one side. According to survivors of the Holocaust its suppose to be a very sweet smell that penetrates everything and clings on to your hair even after a couple of showers. Sill paying attention? Now for the good part - watching someone actually sink their teeth into the cadaver.
Now you maybe got some idea of what if feels like when I think of you eating animals. And I see NO reason for this to happen at our flat where all three of us are vegetarians (I'm a vegan (youtube/wiki)). So NO. I could have had a bit more diplomatic approach the first time the discussion came up but I don't see the point in cooking up animal meat at the flat, no one who pays rent here is gonna eat it. Besides those who still eat corpses will survive one meal without, I'm living proof of that.
So I'll still say - Meat Free Kitchen.
Inspiration: Wow, check this guy out! I've thought about this for more then a few times. Leaving this world behind and going for the essentials in life. Heck, we'll see what happens ey? Cause one happy day I might be the one in a trailer in India, living the Real Green Life. Until then I'll keep on reading about this guy (and go demonstrating in at the Climate Meeting in Copenhagen).
Soundtrack: Rainforests pitter patter on my mind.
Special person of the day: Fiffi - for being the coolest vegan of them all!
Youtube of the day:
JOIN the FLOOD, Copenhagen Flood December 12 2009 COP15 UNFCCC
Got a place to stay, a mission and a heart to follow. The big climate change meeting in Copenhagen is gonna be huge. Massive in fact. I recently go the question of why I'm demonstrating;
A: "Explain to me why you are protesting. They aren't doing enough or they aren't doing the right thing?"
Me: "Both actually. They aren't doing enough by a long shot and they are - once again - nick nacking about the wrong issues. Sure, Power/transportation/flight/industry are huge climate villains but there is a whole lot more to it. For example, one of the biggest issues as I've said many times before - meat.
And they really, everyone really, have to know and realise that the climate protests in Copenhagen this weekend isn't just cause its cool to be a part of some big (ok, huge) demonstration - its cause its bloody important that we all open our eyes and hearts for the big changes ahead."
A: "So, somewhere in their is praise for the work that they are actually doing, with the power/transportation/flight/industry issues? But you wish to inform them that they need to do more?
While I believe you are sincere, considering the _vastly_ different reasons different people tell me about why they go to this protest (or similar climatic-themed ones), I still think it's generally a tourist-protesting festival."
Me: "I get what you mean but nah. I don't think so. And frankly, it doesn't matter if it is to some people. We need everyone there, no matter what reason they'd like to be there or not. Even as tourists. We need everyone.
If the numbers are right the big as demonstration is gonna hit somewhere between 30 000 to 50 000 people. (reading the news papers today). And deep inside, no matter how naive, there is a voice that says that with these amounts of activists in one spot have to mean something. Have to make some sort of difference. Maybe not to the big people in suits sitting on the actual meeting but the people at home, drinking their tea. They might notice that we've actually got quite the climate problem here on earth and think twice before buying dinner next time. And that's enough for me. Can't have to big hopes, can I?"
I also have to figure out a way to not look like me. TCDG said that anarchists will probably be stopped at the border. Fuck. Uhm. So I need to dress up as an innocent girl? Ok. That could be quite the challenge. I've got either the Anarchist, the queer dyke or the hippie look going for me in my closet. Well, I guess its time to start digging deeper.
COP15 FAQ:
So what is COP15 anyways?
"Welcome to Denmark and the city of Copenhagen! We have the pleasure of hosting the 15th United Nations Climate Change Conference (COP15) taking place at Bella Center in Copenhagen from the 7th to the 18th of December, 2009."
Who will attend COP15?
Several thousand delegates from the192 countries that have signed the United Nations Framework Climate Change Convention (UNFCCC) will be attending COP15 in Copenhagen this year. These will include heads of state, ministers, senior government officials, and several observer organizations.
When was the first COP meeting?
The first such conference was held in 1995 in Berlin. It was marked by uncertainty as to the resources the individual participating countries possessed to combat greenhouse gas emissions. This resulted in “The Berlin Mandate", which set a two-year analysis and evaluation phase. This phase resulted in a catalog of measures nations could take to lower greenhouse gas emissions. Member countries could use this catalog to compose their own set of initiatives.
What is the Kyoto Protocol?
Perhaps the most famous outcome of a COP meeting to date was the agreement made in Kyoto, Japan at COP3 in 1997. At this conference, the Kyoto Protocol was adopted. This was the first agreement to introduce binding targets for greenhouse gas emissions in 37 industrialized countries from 2008 to 2012. On February 16, 2005 it came into force but several of the UNFCCC never agreed to it and do not acknowledge its requirements regarding emissions — most notably the USA.
What was decided at the last COP meeting?
The biggest recent decision was the Bali Action Plan that came from COP13 in 2007. At that meeting, all UNFCCC countries concurred that an agreement is needed based on a long-term shared vision and four building blocks:
Increased mitigation of greenhouse gas emissions
Adaptation to climate change
Technology transfers and development
Financing
What will be discussed at COP15?
Even though there is agreement among the parties behind the UNFCCC that a shared vision should be drawn up to tackle climate change based on the four building blocks, after two years there is still disagreement as to exactly what this vision should include. Organizers will try to reach a global agreement in Copenhagen that will extend beyond the Kyoto agreement and be ratified by all 192 participating countries.
What if an agreement is not reached?
Deliberations will continue into their 18th year (official talks began in 1992) while climate change will continue to affect our planet.
Can I attend the conference?
The conference is only open to the official delegates and select members of the press. It is not open to the general public.
What can I do to ensure COP15 is a success?
Raise awareness and let the delegates know the world is watching. We can help. Go to My Green Pledge and tell the delegates and the rest of the 1.7 billion people on the Internet how you feel about climate change and about COP15. Then ask your friends to do the same.
Demonstrate. Talk. Act. Change your daily life not only for the week of COP15 but for a better future.
Person of the day: TCDG (The Cute Danish Guy) who I've blogged about before and who's sweet enough to let me crash at his place during my stay in Copenhagen. Thx, Hun!
Soundtrack: The silence before the storm. Soon.... Very Soon.
Youtube: Act now!!
And I am. I try to. And so should you. I can list fact after fact, which I will anyways but the problem isn't that people don't know that its serious. Its that they don't want to understand. The internet provides us with all kinds of information we want, from reliable sources, that the environment is in trouble but people just don't seem to care. So I opened my eyes again, after letting them rest for a couple of days and grab the next possible weapon. You want war? I'll give you war.
Think Green, Act Now!!
Soundtrack: Ayo - Help is coming
Person of the day: The main guy that interviewed (they were four in total) me today, a real job interview. At a place I actually wanna work, for real. And made a huge effort in applying too. Gosh, keeping all fingers crossed. I guess, now its up to them. I gave it my bes shot anyways.
Homepage of the day: Fresh Air
Youtube of the day: Animal Agriculture: The facts
It seems weird that I can't write, read or talk about the stuff that is most important to me. I run away from art. Don't wanna hit the galleries. Don't dare to produce. Can't talk about it and so on. It makes my skin crawl. Guess I'm scared of failing. Same thing happens when travelling comes up in conversation, or at least when people wanna go into a real conversation about it. When I wanna check out where I might head towards next time. I love larping but don't wanna think about it, can't handle making a larp or preparing. I guess I'm scared of failing.
And then there's the environment, the most important of them all. My biggest interest and the one "thing" that combines it all - Travel/Art/Larp. I'm constantly fighting (what can only be discribed as this huge war?) - to change the world. To get people to listen, stop violating the planet. Nature. Gosh, I even got it permanently fuckin' inked on my whole back - the HUGE tree. (If you haven't seen it yet, here's the link).
So why is it so hard to write about it? I feel like there should be heaps of blog posts that talk about veganism, animal abuse and COP15 right here on my little page/mind. But no. Why?
I haven't really figured out the art/travel/larp part but maybe this whole issue with the environment related stuff (heck, I don't even wanna read the news!) is, I guess, cause of a constant bad consciousness. That we, correction, that I should be able to do more. I get so consumed with all the shit that's going down that I can't handle my own chaos. I get involved, hurt and cry when I see what you, yes, you are doing to this world. So I close my eyes. I pull the covers over my head. I pretend that every things alright. I get that thing that is commonly known as "world consciousness" (världssamvete in Swedish) among activists, when I make all the issues in the world my own fault, my own responsibility. Even though I try hard to listen to the "words of wisdom" I keep on preaching to all of you; "If everyone would just take one little step we would be able to save the world".
COP15 is coming on, its already in session and this weekend I'm gonna join forces and demonstrate in Copenhagen at the climate meeting for a better environment. No, for the planet and its future. This time its not only the little pissed of angry girl that everyone sees when I talk about animal abuse, its real you guys. For fuck's sake... You can't keep ignoring this. If we wanna keep on having a future at all this is the time to change. Before its to late.
I can feel the rage pumping through my veins. Like I'm screaming at the top of my lung inside the parliament but all the men in nice suits keep on starring at the numbers in front of them. They all seem, you fuckin' all seem, to believe that the one who has the most/nicest stuff when we die wins. Well, I'll tell ya - that's not the way it works. Ok. Not everyone around me but way to many and gosh, just a fuckin' lot of people out there.
Its finally come to everyone's mind that yes, the environment is of some importance but hey - why should I, little me, do something different in my everyday life when no one else is? Cause you bloody well have to!! Breath. Come on, Breath. Cause tomorrow it might be to late. Seriously, is it so much to ask that you'd be a vegetarian every Monday (for example) if you can't handle living without meat? To much to ask that you turn off the light, kill the stand by stuff or commute instead of taking the car?
I don't even wanna begin talking about the facts n' numbers, I'm closing my eyes. You should know by now that meat, power and cars are doing to the environment. And if you don't... Nah, I'm to pissed of, to upset, to help you. Today. So let me crawl back into bed, pull the covers over my head and pretend - just for one minute - that we're all taking one step for a better future. Cause I'll tell ya, its not the men in suits that are gonna "save the planet". Its you and me, with our everyday choices. Talking into thin air, am I? You decide.
Soundtrack: Sigur Ros - Hoppipolla
Person of the day: My mum. You made this possible, going to Copenhagen. For teaching me to respect nature. + once more - Welcome to our beautiful family of veggies!
Youtube of the day: Please help the world - COP15 opening film (Even though I've seen better once I must say)
Reading the morning paper is not a thing I do often. But today I stayed in bed and picked up my all fresh from the press number of Animal rights (Swedes Djurens Rätt). This always make me feel all bittersweet. Knowing that people don't care about whats essential to me at least and not knowing what the consequences are. I have talked before about the meat industrial and it's effect on the environment. And if your all for saving the world you should think about your meat habits. They will be the once that can save or kill our lives in the end.
This is a subject, thats almost always, is forgotten when talking about how to regulate the pollution. Transports, switching off your light bulb and other stuff like that makes people uncomfortable to think about. They actually have to change their habits and start to recycle but when it comes down to it, nobody really wants someone to interfere with their food. Sure, there are people that just don't care that the animal actually suffers a great deal, wether their brought up in an "ecological" environment or in one of the huge slaughter houses. But what I don't get is why these people insist on turning of there light bulb, going to climate demonstrations and so on. Yes, everything we do will in the end effect how future generations live on the planet and everything counts but if you chose to not include dead animals in your diet you will done a lot more for the climate then never even turning your light on at home.
Coming back to the newspaper, I mostly get tired of always feeling like I'm all alone having these opinions (of course I'm not a saint and I do lots of horrible stuff for the environment, don't get me wrong). And that the politicians don't know anything about the real world anymore but there is one that got my respect this morning. Young and upcoming, which is when they still have an opinion, but still. Thanks to Alexander Chamberland one of the former leaders for the green youth parties in Sweden. Hopefully there are more of you out there and that you get more influence on the "real" action at the top office.
Do I need to say again that 18% of the global warming problems comes from the meat industrial, thats actually more than the hole transport sector. And yes, you could say that you belive in the cycle of life but that is not a valid answer when we go in and play god, and obviously not stay in the cycle but belive ourselves to be above it.
Addictions: Travel + Hitch hiking, tea, art, dance, larp, play, cartwheels, my cell phone, music, the road, computers n' internet
Politics: Green-Veggie-Queer-Anarchist-Socialist
Loves: Animals&Nature, dark chocolate, warm hands, Urban Exploration, hitch-hiking, demonstarting, creating stuff/art, dancing, runnin' through the grass bare feet, adventures
Hates: to freeze, winter, autumn, losing control, my conscience, Falling in Love
Scared of: insects, the dark, Pennywise the Clown, Losing control, deep water, meat, freedom of will and not having freedom of will, the entrapment of a "relationship" (I'm a Relationship Anarchist), capitalism
Massive Attack, Queen, AFI, Takida, CombiChrist, Björk, Coheed & Cambria, Lacuna Coil, Deine Lakain, Bush, Pink, Rammstein+Tatu-kombo, Juli, Covenant, VNV Nation, Soulfly, Nine Inch Nails, System of a Down, Silbermond, K-pist, Tool, Stabbing Westward, Within Temptation, Smashing Pumkins, The Used, Skillet, Architecture in Helsinki, Säkert!, Detektivbyrån, Fall out boy, Kate Nash, Freak Kitchen, Hello Saferide, Gwen Stefani, Eskalator, GoGol Bordello, Muse, Fall out boy, Shout Out Louds, Antony and the Johnsons, Blink 182, Rage agains the machine, Skunk Anansie, Arcade Fire, Silverchair, Kent, Dntl, Kora, Minuit, Sidewalk, Ladi 6, Lykke Li, Lamb, Lama, Stay Ali, Dubstep+Drum&bass, Mint Royal, Sigur Rós, Fat Freddy's Drop, Katchafire, The Black Seeds, Sidewalk, Joel&Joakim... and much more.
Duck and Cover! (youtube)
